Weigh in Wednesday
Well, today is May 23, 2012. I have bad news, but not too bad. The bad news is, I gained a couple of pounds. I am now at 299.8. I'm still in the twos, but that's pretty scary since I'm so close to 300 again. There are no excuses for why I gained weight, and I take responsibility and will use this as a learning tool.First, my 17 year old daughter, had her senior prom on May 12th. I was doing fine that week until my friend from Los Angeles came to help with my daughter, as I had to work, and couldn't take her around to get a few last minute things she needed.
My friend also brought her mom with her. We went out to eat one day, and, gee, for some reason, I magically forgot I was supposed to be tracking. Well, I didn't. The next day, I somehow "forgot" again, and had pizza. And a lot of it throughout the day. Then, this last weekend, my family and I went on vacation for 2 days to California, and again, like the previous week, tracking was not on my mind.
During those two weeks, I did do my exercises, and walked a lot. I walked more than I had in years! We visited and stayed in Long Beach on the Queen Mary ship. It was awesome. We explored the whole ship for about two hours, walking up and down stairs, going back and forth. You wouldn't think that you can get a lot of walking on a boat, but I was getting in a good sweat, and it felt good. We also walked around in downtown L.A. This was a huge NSV for me. I might have blogged about our trip last year, where I couldn't walk and had to sit down. Well, this year 50+ pounds lighter, I just had to go to the same place as last year, and see how far I've come. We parked in the same exact space, and walked the same route I couldn't 12 months earlier. It was so easy! I walked that, and so much more! It felt really good, and I was really proud. My daughter was especially happy, and said how bad she felt for me last year. She was so proud, and happy that we were able to browse all the little vendor carts without me being winded and needing to sit down.
Definitely know where you're coming from. Look at me, I've lost about 108 lbs (more or less, depending on what the scale shows these days). And I STILL have these same episodes! There's always a different reason. Sometimes boredom. Sometimes a crazy hunger that takes over. Sometimes stress or sadness. Whatever. I can't seem to ever eliminate these episodes. Sometimes I have a week or even two in a row where I'm good the whole time. But that's pretty rare. I'm not saying to give in to these things, but I'm just saying I feel like I don't yet know how to keep them from happening. It also seems like when I'm going through a lot at work or elsewhere, that I have a lot more "binges". When everything in my life is stable more or less, it's much easier to be a tracking expert and have no slips.
ReplyDeleteUltimately I think we all want to be at a point where we can just "be" and not have to track or think about this junk constantly. But I'm not sure that's possible. For me it seems like there will have to be some compromise where I'm always tracking/measuring to some degree or other. Maybe I can get to where it isn't as constant or severe as now. But I'm not there yet.
You've done remarkably well from what I've seen, so as long as you're generally keeping with the program you can't feel too bad! So many people just totally give up. I've been stuck in a maintenance or even slight re-gain mode this past 2-3 months and it sucks. But I'm still working it and I know I'll get down to goal eventually.